Monday, February 19, 2007
Took the plunge
Here I am
Neither here
Nor there
Belonging, yet seen as an outcast
A one year limbo I'll be in...
Its new...
Its different...
Its nice...
Yet, I don't blend.
Why?
Time, Time, Time will solve it all...
Time will bridge differences...
Time breeds familiarity...
Time is predictable in the sense it'll always run...
But how things turn out...
That's unpredictable.
Home...
What is home?
I want to go home.
I miss home.
But does home miss me?
Can a strange, foreign land become home?
Can strangers become family?
Can I, will I stay here and settle down?
What opinions you have about me, tell me straight
What you feel
What you think
I am...
Whatever it is...
Be it hating me...
Be direct.
But don't ignore me without saying a thing.
I wonder, I wonder
What's going on back there?
Am I forgotten?
Or am I remembered?
Changes changes changes
Will things turn out from good to bad
Or bad to good.
Or will one happen at the expense of another.
Emotions, emotions, emotions.
Anxious, nervous deep within.
Slow, calm, serene around me
Back home
It was hectic.
Complex
Stress
Emotionally-charged
Low self-confidence
Self-doubts
Interpersonal fears
Relationships were complex
Real complex...
And the fear of not measuring up to life's overwhelming challenges.
Its WAR back home.
Competition in terms of
Academic
Popularity
material goods
Personality
My...Spare me the superficiality...
At least, things are more REAL here...
Just that...I don't belong
at the moment that is...
Really wished...I could help back there...
But here I am...
And whole new problems I have seen...
A glimpse, A preview of the present
Nothing started yet
Till the 22nd
A holiday it has been
Calm before a storm?
I really dunno...
All e best 2 me and all those around me and back there.
We're each having our own war, own battle.
Carrying our own cross.
